Kids!

I teach Sunday school for wonderful 2 year-olds each week. This week one little girl found the coveted stuffed duck that the kids like to ride like a horse. She decides to ride it all around the classroom shouting "quack, quack, quack." Unfortunately, her 'qua' sound isn't quite developed and came out as 'fu' sound. Oh, the magical adventures of learning to talk.

Hmmm

I've got so much to say but can't.... darn this job and it's confidentially!! I almost think that processing might be worth the $50,000 fine and a year in prison.

My New Week's Resolutions

1. Actually go to bed when I know that I should, despite tempting TV/facebook

2. Not to eat lunch at my desk doing work

3. Workout at least 4 times

4. Be more aware of the impact I have on those around me

Maybe if I put it in writing for the world to see, I'll stick to it this week! We'll see.

In a funk

How much easier would life be if we were born with an instruction manual? If God already knows the plans that He has for me and He knows how it all turns out... why can't He make it more clear to me? I know all the "listen closer" "ask and you will receive" stuff, but today I'm just wanting answers! I'd like to hear a knock at my door, and open it to see God waiting to tell me what the next step should be in my life. I feel like I'm never sure exactly and so I carefully wade into it all unsure of how much to invest. Why can't it all be more clear? The answer always seems to be "step out in faith" but how do I know that I'm where God wants me to step. I would be so much more willing to jump into things with both feet if only I knew it was the right pool.

God is clearly with me in the difficult times. He has proved that many times. It's in the blah days that my frustration keeps me from calling out for help. Then I just sit around, like now, in a grumpy funk... fighting against the only thing that will make it better. May this whining blog posting keep me motivated to not let anything, even myself, get in the way of what God has planned.

wow

It's been a really long time since I last blogged! It's too late for me to say anything anything insightful or humorous, but I just wanted to say that I'm still alive!

Work Insights

I had a surprising moment of insight at work tonight (and I'm supposed to be creating the insight!). I was working on a puzzle with a client and we were talking about various things. I commented on how she stays to calm when working on a puzzle and I tend to get more frustrated. I was hoping that she would be able to extrapolate from this situation to other areas of her life. Her answer, while straight forward and true, caught me a bit off guard as really true for my own life:

"I guess I just think that if I don't figure out where the piece goes now, I will eventually"

Eventually is such a hard concept to accept sometimes.

Processing

You brought me out of the darkness and into the light
But I closed my eyes once again

I close my eyes to light to feel something familiar
I close my eyes to the light to feel I'm in control
I close my eyes to the light but I can't determine
Why I can't let freedom take hold...