Really?!?

I just heard about a website that you can sign up for that will send e-mails to your friends and family after you've been raptured. The website (You've been left behind) will automatically send e-mails to predetermined friends and family members after the web staff is unable to log on for 6 days (presumably because they have been raptured). I hope they have adequate coverage.... one delayed vacation or downed server and world wide panic would spread.

Sigh

I missed my dad this morning. It's not a usual thing for me just to miss him with no trigger or reason. I've got a phone list on my bulletin board above my desk from 12/2002 that I can't bring myself to take down. Even though a ton of the phone numbers are out of date... it's got my dad's cell phone number and the numbers of his friends and his doctors and the title of the list is "Hank and Jerrie Harper." I guess I'm just missing him today. It would be nice to have him see what my life is now... I enjoy it so much, I know he'd love it too (at the same time making some inappropriate joke or making fun of me no doubt!). Maybe I should take the phone list down and put it in a place I don't look at everyday... oh well. I love you dad!

I love hiking

Just in case it wasn't already clear!!

Australia

Step one in planning my trip to Australia....
...start tracking the weather....
...CHECK....
...this week the weather in Sydney will be in the mid-60's will scattered showers.

Step two in planning my trip to Australia...
...find out how to pay for it...

hmmmmmm

My frustration

Let me start by saying that I really do love going to therapy. I think it's not only a necessity for doing my job, but it's a necessity as a person. I love learning more about myself and growing as a person. However, some days I feel like too much self-reflection isn't a good thing. It's almost like I'm continually picking at a scab. I think too much, try to understand too much. Maybe a correct portion of self-denial is good for a person. I need to not be constantly aware of my short failings and the way that I'm reacting to everyone else's crap. Sometimes I just wish that I could shut it off... I'm not really sure what "it" is, but sometimes I just want it to stop. I look at other people and the way they coast through life and it looks so nice, so appealing.

I love that I'm self-reflecting on my self-reflection!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Fun Fact

Today I realized that the noise my car makes when the keys are in the ignition but the door is open is the same tempo as the theme song from Fraggle Rock. Now I can't help but sing along when I hear it... "Cast your cares away... worries for another day... let the music play... down at Fraggle Rock!!"

Thought for the week

All to Jesus, I surrender;
All to Him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust Him,
In His presence daily live.

I surrender all, I surrender all,
All to Thee, my blessèd Savior,
I surrender all.

All to Jesus I surrender;
Humbly at His feet I bow,
Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
Take me, Jesus, take me now.

All to Jesus, I surrender;
Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
Truly know that Thou art mine.

All to Jesus, I surrender;
Lord, I give myself to Thee;
Fill me with Thy love and power;
Let Thy blessing fall on me.

All to Jesus I surrender;
Now I feel the sacred flame.
O the joy of full salvation!
Glory, glory, to His Name!

I've decided this will be my song for the week. I was listening to it as a drove to work this morning and it helped me put some perspective on some stuff. I want to be able to live the words of this song. I want to be able to surrender it all to God: my fears, my insecurities, my doubts, my frustration, my hopes, and my expectations. Good or bad, I don't want to hold on to stuff and act like I can handle it. God has proved to me countless times that I can't handle it... why do I keep trying?!?

Bittersweet

I was really excited to get to hang out with one of my best friends (and former roommate) and her husband this weekend. We only got about 12 hours together but we sure made the best of it. I knew that I missed them a lot, but having them here made that fact that they're gone seem more real. It isn't that God hasn't brought some awesome people into my life... but I really, really miss Josh and Gabi.

"Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.
'Pooh!' he whispered.
'Yes, Piglet?'
'Nothing,' said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw.
'I just wanted to be sure of you.'"

I guess that's just a basic human need... just to be sure that someone is there.

:-(

Stupid facebook... so much for going to bed early tonight. I gave in way too easy... I feel cheap.

I like my life

I have nothing to say... I am just getting freaked out that the hairless rat is the first thing I see when I go to my blog. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have some wonderful revelation that will help put the rat even lower. Why, oh why, did I put that picture on my blog?